Scenario #1: It’s a busy, busy morning–life is already running faster than my normal comfort zone (slow). In the midst of it, the doorbell rings. I check before opening to see who it is. It isn’t anyone I know, but he seems to have an ID badge around his neck–looks safe enough–so I open the door. However, I’m hoping that he won’t be selling any product or service I need–it will be easier to say “no thanks” and send him on his way so I can get back to my business (busyness).
Scenario #2: It’s a busy, busy day–our friends from far away are in town, we haven’t seen them in a long time, and they are coming to dinner. But, it’s been a busy, busy week as well, so the house has not had too much attention and there is lots of catch-up to do to be presentable and comfortable before friends arrive. In the midst of the flurry which has spilled over into the afternoon, the doorbell rings. Our friends have arrived early, because a plan fell through leaving them with gap time between that and our plans for dinner. Apologetically I open the door and we exchange hugs and greetings, even though the vacuum is in the middle of the living room and all the rugs, etc. from the kitchen are dumped in the dining room, not yet having been put back since I mopped the floor an hour ago. I’m glad to see them, but stress has been added to the welcome–I wasn’t quite ready.
Scenario #3: It’s a busy, busy day–our friends from far away are in town, we haven’t seen them in a long time, and they are coming to dinner. It’s been a busy, busy week as well, but I made a list on Monday and have kept it before me, focusing on being prepared for the visit. I’ve been in the expectation mode, with everything geared toward readiness for that relational time. When the door bell rings, good smells are coming from the kitchen, and, for once, the entire house doesn’t smell like a just-cleaned bathroom, since I have been giving a little attention each day during the week to this visit and company prep didn’t pile up all at the last minute.
“Now when Jesus returned, a crowd welcomed him, for they were all expecting him….” (Luke 8:40) This jumped out at me this morning. There was a connection between expectation and welcome. And it made me think about my own response to Jesus.
Sometimes I haven’t been focusing on my relationship with Him. Busyness has crept into the quiet times where I meet Him to listen to His words to my heart as I read the Bible. I haven’t had a quiet enough heart or slowed down enough to truly hear His voice to me when I pray. When he finally gets my attention, it can almost feel like the intrusion of Scenario #1.
There are other times that I am on track and sit down for some quiet time with Jesus. But life has piled up because I’ve not been very disciplined during that week. Or because I’ve overcommitted myself. Then the set-aside time for Bible reading and prayer feel more like duty than relationship and I come to the end of a day realizing that I was too distracted and scattered throughout it to even consciously consider Jesus as a stepped through the day. I replaced the peace and awareness of His presence with the stress of acting like I was walking alone. I never really got around to looking Up because I was so focused on looking around at what seemed really, really important.
Then, there are the times that I wish would be the every day mode: focused, keeping the main things–the Main Thing–main, moving through the hours with a consciousness of the One who has said “Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you.” Moment by moment expectation–the kind that keeps you looking out the window when you’re waiting for your first love to appear for a date. Even though you may have spent the day at school or at work and may have been doing tasks as mundane as sharpening a pencil or cleaning a toilet, there has been that awareness just beneath the surface, for you are going to see HIM face to face soon.
Focusing…enfolding…embracing…keeping my eyes fixed…giving attention…giving welcome because I am expecting Him…
“O come to my heart, Lord Jesus; there is room in my heart for Thee.“
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